My name remains the same

My  aim  remains  the  same.
I  wanna  find  out,  what  it  is,
the  truth.
But  what  it  found?  -  Disease
and  happenings  I  can't  explain.

Forgive  me,  Lord,  for  that.
For  I  cannot  forgive  myself
for  being
blind.  You  know,  and  being  deaf,
now  then  I  cannot  speak!  Too  bad...

The  more  I  live  my  life
the  more  I  gain,  the  more  I  lose.
I  use
existence  of  no  use,
Don't  want  to  rise,  to  fall,  to  strive.

I'm  sad  to  feel  a  sort
of  joy  that  can't  be  shared  with  world.
I'm  sad.
My  sadness  is  a  wound
that  aches  and  can't  be  healed  by  word.

I  feed  a  void  inside.
Each  day  my  void  devours  wast'd  time
And  now
I  do,  composing  rhyme,
Avoid  my  job,  fate  predefined.

I  could  just  sleep  instead,
Or  find  some  easy  occupation.
or  I
could  fight  against  frustration
via  the  Godlike  Internet.

Enough  then.  What  to  say?
Who  wants  to  play  -  he  wins  the  game
Just  like
This  verse,  my  life  is  lame.
That's  fair  that  losers  fade  away.

адреса: https://www.poetryclub.com.ua/getpoem.php?id=298022
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дата надходження 05.12.2011
автор: Jonny Evilko